Saturday, July 25, 2009


हाथ लिखना चाहते थे
पर क्या लिखते ?
गद्य ? पद्य ?

हाथ जुड़ भी सकते थे, दोनो
पर क्या बनते ?
अभिवादन? याचना ?

हाथ थाम भी सकते थे कोई और हाथ
पर क्या देते ?
स्नेह ? सांत्वना ?

बनाने में हाथ, जिसका था हाथ
कदापि कहना चाहता था
मैं हाथ नही आऊँगा
हाथों को खोल दो

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

UG Speaks - 3

It went on and on in its own way -- peculiar things -- but never did I say to myself "Well, (Laughs) I am getting there, I am nearer to that." There is no nearness to that, there is no far awayness from that, there is no closeness to that. Nobody is nearer to that because he is different, he is prepared. There's no readiness for that; it just hits you like a ton of bricks.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Vishnu -- Lord of the past 2 (too)

Vishnu -- Lord of the past too

Enjoying a holiday, it struck me while taking bath that Vishnu is also lord of the past.

Vishnu in Vishnu Sahasranaam's(sahasranamam) opening verse is described as:

विश्वं विष्णुर्वषट्कारो भूतभव्यभवत्प्रभुः।
भूतकृद्भूतभृद्भावो भूतात्मा भूतभावनः॥१॥

We can become argumentative sanskrit pandits of Kashi and decipher Bhoota, as not 'past' but 'beings'. But then one more post will be required to connect the sublime invariance in the two seemingly contradictory interpretations of the word 'Bhoota'.

In any case Sahastranaam(sahasranamam) gives more expansive characteristic to Vishnu calling him, namely , bhoot bhavya bhavat(past,future,present). This is expected from the expansive Vishnuite tendencies which seek inclusion through constructs. The ever pervasive 'Vishnu' engulfs everything and appears everywhere hahahaha.

Let me put this semantics to rest, may be another post on Vishnu sometime!

However for those who are inclined to chew on this further there is some hint in the post script.

PS: सर्वः शर्वः शिवः स्थाणुर्भूतादिर्निधिरव्ययः।
संभवो भावनो भर्ता प्रभवः प्रभुरीश्वरः॥४॥
स्वयंभूः शम्भुरादित्यः पुष्कराक्षो महास्वनः।
भूतावासो वासुदेवः सर्वासुनिलयोऽनलः
महाह्रदो महागर्तो महाभूतो महानिधिः॥८६॥

Bhootnaatha - Lord of the past

Boothnatha: LORD of the PAST

This blog has in the past argued, that memory(past) is only fundamental tense that makes up human experience. You cannot perceive without knowledge, which is nothing but a memory (or no knowledge which is in turn knowledge about no-knowledge)

The latent hardwired tendencies(memories) control the emotive response towards incidents/people/actions and also imagination.

All this buried baggage of knowledge, which is nothing but 'past', resurfaces again and again and we go through the same mental responses again and again. When you recognize how past has clutched you, how you go through in your mind same memories again and again compulsively. Memories about how you went through incidents. Memories about how you wanted them to happen and memories about how you would like to experience life which is yet to happen. Once this recognition happens it gives you the freedom to make the present free from past.

You become bhootnaatha by becoming Lord of the Past. When the repetitive tendencies of mind are controlled. When the same incidents which evoked panic/despair/irritation/restlessness earlier do not create them anymore, know that you are Bhootnatha. When memories of life that was, do not have an emotional pull left. When the imagined life which is yet to happen is no longer dwelled upon iteratively, know that you are Bhootnatha. You are liberated from the karmic chakra of thinking obsessively and going through the same "mental imagery route" over and over again.

Then bhootnatha sits in Shamsana(dead/inactive memories) without fear. The fear and burden of memories is no more. The decay of the lifeless past only adds to Bhootnaatha's splendor. It adorns him.

Then when you longer experience your mind the way you experienced in the past, in your action you open your self to the spontaneous, unplanned dimension of life. Time doesnt unsettle you and the fearless Bhootnatha now opens up to be Kala Bhairava, one that time cannot frighten.


A related post on Kali is here

Friday, July 10, 2009

Ramana Speaks -- 4

D.: It is difficult to follow. I understand the theory. But what is the practice?

M.: The other methods are meant for those who cannot take to the investigation of the Self. Even to repeat Aham Brahmasmi or think of it, a doer is necessary. Who is it? It is ‘I’. Be that ‘I’. It is the direct method. The other methods also will ultimately lead everyone to this method of the investigation of the Self.

-from Talk 266

from achalayoga blog

Monday, July 06, 2009

Guru strotam - Guru poornima

ततः किं ततः किं ततः किं ततः किं
ततः किं ततः किं ततः किं ततः किं

Will add more words here on the strotam , perhaps :-)


जीवन के सारे अनुभव
मैं त्यागता गया
पर जाना की ये भी एक अनुभव था

प्राप्ती की आशा, निराशा

Sunday, July 05, 2009


चाहता था अंत
अंत आया तो, पर
अपने साथ उपरांत लाया
अंत के उपरांत फिर एक प्रारंभ

अंततः शांति कब ?